Demi Moore Reveals She Blamed Herself For Heartbreaking Miscarriage At 42 With Ashton Kutcher
Demi Moore shared in a revealing interview that she suffered a traumatic miscarriage while six months pregnant, that she managed to keep secret from the public.
Demi Moores marriage to Ashton Kutcher, 15 years younger, was tabloid fodder before and after their 2013 divorce. Constantly chased by paparazzi who documented every minute detail of her relationship, it was hard to get some privacy. But Demi managed to keep one important event to herself and away from the prying eyes of the public, she said in Harpers Bazaars October 2019 issue. The actress, now 56, had a miscarriage when she was 42 years old, shortly after she and Ashton started dating. “As a woman, a mother, and a wife, there are certain values and vows that I hold sacred, and it is in this spirit that I have chosen to move forward with my life,” she told the magazine while discussing the miscarriage. She lost the baby when she was six months pregnant. Demi later revealed to The New York Times in an interview about her upcoming memoir, Inside Out, that she and Ashton intended to name their daughter Chaplin Ray.
Shortly after her miscarriage, she started drinking again after giving up alcohol and drugs in her 20s. She blamed herself for the loss. Demi and Ashton secretly tried to get pregnant again after their 2005 marriage. But her drinking became out of control, and she started abusing Vicodin before learning that Ashton cheated on her. It got worse. While out with her daughter, Rumer Willis, in 2012, Demi had a seizure after smoking synthetic cannabis and inhaling nitrous oxide. Her addictions alienated Rumer and her other two daughters with ex-husband Bruce Willis, Scout and Tallulah, according to The New York Times. She was able to achieve sobriety again as she neared 50.
“In retrospect, what I realized is that when I opened the door [again], it was just giving my power away,” she told Harpers. “I guess I would think of it like this: It was really important to me to have natural childbirth because I didnt want to miss a moment. And with that I experienced pain. So part of being sober is, I dont want to miss a moment of life, of that texture, even if that means being in some pain.”
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